Ambivalence

My one true desire is this; to be adored. Blessedly, I had always known love.

Middle class existence, an All-American family, and a brother to share my days with.

My twin.

Yin and yang.

All we were missing was that white picket fence, but I easily settled for the wood line in its stead.

Sheer perfection, so quickly torn away.

I'm nothing more than a craving now, a

means to an end.

He loves me, craves me even.

He would do anything for me.

Risk it all just to have me.

Take what he must, unwilling to pay the price.

He wants to possess me.

I want love above all else.

No matter the cost, I'll pay it.

Grin and bear it.

Even if it ends in bloodshed.

Mikey

All I ever wished for was love.

Be careful what you wish for.

Keep the other two.

The shroud of perfection is slipping.

The white picket fence was never there.

I want love more than above all else.

No matter the price, I'll pay it.

Grin and bear it.

Even if it ends in bloodshed.

The Ambivalence Quartet

Ambivalence is part of a four-book series that journeys through Laurel Wyatt and her twin brothers lives, from childhood through womanhood, exploring the long-term effects of trauma.

Ambivalence, the first installment follows Laurels struggles through her teen years as she tries to cope with the abuse thrust onto her, while struggling to be a "good girl." Lost in secrecy, dedication and obedience, she quickly loses herself, spiraling headfirst into a world of lies, silence, and ultimate violence.

Book two, titled Duplicity focuses on the aftermath of the savage events that close out Ambivalence.

The Tough Girl, and the Party Girl, respectively, evolve to protect an already shattered soul.

Book three, titled Resolve, dives into Laurels struggle to find her strength and grow from the unspeakable trauma she suffered at the hands of men.

She struggles with identity, seeking womanhood at the hands of those who damaged her and what that entitles.

Book four, titled Aftermath focuses primarily on Laurels sister, Ava and her struggles in navigating life following savage loss. Ava hunts for love, acceptance, and a place to call home.

Meanwhile her male counterpart Max seeks love.

Wild, uncaged, requited love.

Taking it if he must.