Breaking Free

While in the shower the pine like needles of water fell like sensual rain on targeted places. I felt strange thoughts coming . I was wet , but not entirely from the shower. I heard the phone ringing. The missed call was from an unknown number . It was him trying to reach me . I won't fall for that . I knew that he missed me . He missed the sex . The care and the love. I now know that also , it's akin to the feeling when a child misplaces his favorite toy . He loses interest in all other new toys and searches the one that got out . Just because he wants it back in his collection . It's a pattern .