PTSD Raw and Real

PTSD: Raw and Real is a reflection of my struggles with being a victim of child sexual abuse and the process of coming to terms with how these years of abuse have impacted my life. My life with posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) has been a fragmented and disjointed existence with holes, blockades, and landmines. These unseen obstacles created emotional traps, blockades, and explosions at random intervals regardless of my surroundings. I existed for many years riddled with fear, anger, doubt, shame, self-loathing, despair, and loneliness. I tried to run, hide, escape, and disappear, but I could never find a lasting way to avoid the pain lurking everywhere. I didn't understand what PTSD was, and I was not diagnosed with it until much later in my recovery work. I lived life feeling broken, bad, poisonous, and crazy. I dammed these feelings up into a corner within my soul so that I could survive and function within my life. However, my existence was built on an unsteady foundation of negative self-worth that could not withstand the difficult trials of life. This book is my raw and real truth toward recovery and is the map behind the miracle of repairing my soul.