Releasing The Why

The WHYS in my life will never end.  The emotional state of my life somedays is like a massive jigsaw puzzle.  When you begin to put a puzzle together, you’re taught to put the edges together first.  The frame of the puzzle creates a boundary for which all the other pieces will fit perfectly.  The boarder pieces of the puzzle are easy to identify because they have flat edges. Then one day an unbearable situation occurs, and it hits so hard that you don’t know how to respond.  It could be something small, but because you figured that life is easy – the situation will seem insurmountable.   And just like the jigsaw puzzle with the different shades of blue with the clouds we go from ‘this is easy’ to why has this happened?  Why wasn’t I ready for this storm to hit.  Why didn’t I see this coming, I would have been prepared? Why is life so hard and unpredictable? I really thought I was living ‘my best life’ by demonstrating to the world that I’m strong and courageous. Our superman shield has taken a hit and pieces of my shield have come off and my shield doesn’t fit my body anymore.  Just like the puzzle, the frame of the shield is still intact, but the inside pieces of the shield have been rearranged.  Mind you that all the pieces of the puzzle are still available to complete the beautiful pictures that the box top shows, it’s just I can’t seem to identify the pieces that connect together as easily as I’d envisioned. My life has taken major hit and I can’t, for the life of me, pull my sanity back in alignment.  I struggle to get back to the season of my life where things were calm, so I ask God WHY?