Surviving Master Joshua

This is a true story.
Master Joshua is a pansexual, polyamorous pro-Dom (the term for a male Dominatrix, or a man who Dominates others for money). He leads a BDSM tribe and, when we met, was battling accusations of rape and abuse. Master Joshua was the intended subject of my story... until I became it.
My own name doesn't matter. I can't use it here. Suffice to say that I was a reporter, and a comfortably married mother of two. But, following Joshua deeper and deeper into New York's sexual underground, I toed -- and crossed -- the line between observer and participant, self-discovery and self-destruction, right and wrong.
Our experiences changed me. I lied and cheated to facilitate them, though a lying cheater was not who I wanted to become. I wanted to remain a good wife and mother, and a decent person. So did Joshua.
But we couldn't have our cake and eat it too... or could we?