The War Inside His Mind: A Soldier's Battle to Erase the Emotional Damage of Combat

Drafted into the French-Algerian war of the late 1950s, Alain takes over command of an infantry platoon in the mountains of North Africa, where he learns the reality of combat and gains the experience he needs to survive and to lead his men. The shock of the casualties his platoon suffers turns him into the ruthless warrior he never thought he would become. His blood boils when the dissidents he is fighting use the civilians he is assigned to protect as instruments of war: a rancher's family, slaughtered with knives; an innocent little girl, sent to hand him a live grenade that almost kills them both. He befriends another little girl, five-year old Aisha, and rescues her after attacks on her father's farm. The toll on him is high, but the beauty of the Atlas Mountains and the mesmerizing emptiness and colors of the Sahara nurture his soul and offset some of the traumatic effects of the relentless war. Alain accumulates a heavy baggage he will have to take to civilian life, if he makes it. Yet he has no choice but to go on