Under the Influence

I hate him.But, I'm tough. I can handle being dumped. What I can't handle is him acting like I meant nothing to him when he knew he was my everything.I'm over it. I'm over him. I've moved on and have everything I've ever wanted. I'm finally happy.At least I should be. I want to be. I pretend to be.Now he's back. With reasons for leaving that I don't understand or believe. But, I don't care anymore what he says or does. I can't trust him. No matter how hard he tries to win me back.I'll never forgive him.She hates me.My girl's tough. She put up with all my bullshit until I had to let her go and act like she wasn't the only good thing in my life.I never got over it. I never got over her. But I pretended like I did to keep her safe. Until she tried to move on with some bastard who thought he could have her for himself. Could make her happy again after I almost destroyed her.Now I'm back. I know her secrets, and she knows mine. What kills me is that she doesn't believe me. Doesn't care what I say or do. But I'll prove to her she can trust me. No matter what it takes, I will get her back.She'll forgive me. Even if she doesn't, she'll still be mine.