Unpacked

I’m fed up of feeling inadequate… F..k what does that even mean? The word inadequate suggests that I’m in fact equating myself to something, I don’t even know what that thing is, so how can I be not it? It’s a frustrating human thing we all do, we measure ourselves up against shit that ain’t real or even measurable. So now I have to work out what my metric value system is and what I’m not equating to so I can ensure that my emotional suffering is actually worth the effort and time I give it to thrive.

When I was younger my inadequacies were centered around not being cool enough, I was at times a quiet kid, at times a complete loon and at times just going through the motions so was pretty much in neutral. I’d look at the other kids and wish I fitted in with them, with no real idea why I felt that way. I didn’t have any actual evidence to suggest that perhaps they didn’t want me to fit it, I just felt that way.  Inadequate! And so that was the  card I played.

I can see now how those behaviours have stuck, and yet perhaps a variety of reasons, I’m still playing the same cards, from the same deck I had as a child.

So always in search of this elusive ‘right fit’, I’ve been wandering the planet trying to see where I might belong without ever actually trying to fit into anything.

How about YOU?

It you are at the place in your life where you need a little guidance then perhaps its time to “Unpack”