Why "Didn't" I Get Married?

Why didn't I get married? Having temperaments and a history that makes me supersensitive to intrusion, I require a lot of privacy and uninterrupted time for my God-given passions. Alternatively, I feel that marriage is a ministry, and that God still has a purpose for me in this assignment. However, by the time that I am married, I want to be so whole (nothing missing, nothing broken, and nothing lacking) that I will want him more than I need him! I want your God; I want your ministry. I want your love; I want your sex. I want your protection; I want your security, but most of all, I want YOU! A godly man would rather be wanted for who he is, than for what he has to offer.
Besides, when you lead people to believe that you "need" them, you are most vulnerable to being controlled by them. The way that I was able to break free from a 15-year, controlling and manipulative relationship was not by being independent. It was by being "inner-dependent." As long as your faith is in a faithful God, "greater is the HE that is IN you," than the him that is in the world. That brings me to another reason why I never married. Even though I was delivered from him, I still had some scars that needed to be healed. When you are not whole, you will end up multiplying toxicity because you give each other broken pieces that neither of you were prepared to fix. My point: learn to be complete before you get connected!
It is easier to love a person until death when you have learned to love yourself to life. After learning to love myself to life, I have decided to wait on "purpose." A Boaz with purpose is better than the "Wrong-Az" with power. In my opinion, the reason that man came up with the term, "lawfully-wedded," is that they are just that: lawful - even if it's not spiritual. When you have been spiritually-connected, your life is touched by someone who is going in the direction of your destiny. Therefore, when you learn to say, "I do" to God, you will learn to say, "I won't" to the "Wrong-az."
Why DIDN'T I get Married? The man that I came out of is the man that I plan to walk back into - and the two shall become one again (read Gen. 2:23). Unless he has settled, by giving his rib to the wrong woman, he is still trying to find himself (the him in me). The thrill of the earth experience is the reconnection of two spirits that were created as one. If the man ultimately marries the feminine side of himself, and the woman marries the masculine side of herself, they would refuse to ever be without the other. Ask me why. You can only divorce someone that you were never one with, to begin with. Wherefore, if you were one, how could you even contemplate divorcing yourself? Married or single, this book is bound to "purpose-ize" your wait and maximize your purpose. ... "Wait I say, on the Lord" (Psa. 27:14b).